The Long Goodbye

Hello poppets.

Wow.

Hiatus mode for 2 years.

2 years seems like forever. And a lot has happened since my last post in 2014. It's too much to write down all that has happened.

So back to the title of the post.

Yes. It's time for me to say goodbye to this blog. 

Reading back on what has happened in my life, I came to realize that a lot has changed. The people around me has changed, I have changed. And the biggest change that has happened,

is this

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Yeap.

I.Am.A.Mother
Love and I finally tied the knot earlier this year, and produced a miniature us.

Being at home 24/7 with the lil one, trying to adjust with the big change in my life has made me rant a lot on Twitter. And this made me realize how important writing still is or me to express myself and to let out some steam. I need it to release the stress I'm handling and the limit of 140 words that Twitter is implementing made me realize "I NEED TO START BLOGGING AGAIN."

But to just pick up and start writing again on this blog (especially after the last post) would seem weird. There's a lot of holes that's the missing events of my life that I should have shared first but did not because I was too busy being an adult (read JOB RESPONSIBILITIES). And so, this is why I have decided to end this blog and start up a new one. Fresh start.

Heck. Starting a new blog is not as easy as I thought it would be. Just on arranging the templates has given me a headache. And I am not sure how frequent I'll blog, since I have a tiny human to take care of now. But because I really miss writing and I need it, here's my new blog → http://ramblesandprattles.blogspot.my/

I SHOULD START BLOGGING THERE SOON!

(I am still a procrastinator. Can't seem to get rid of this bad habit)

I'll miss this blog. It is the record of what has happened mostly during my days as a university student. So full of dramas, and yet so many events that I a reflect on. 

And so, as I turn 30 today, I bid you all a fond farewell.

Adieu.

xoxo

4 months

My paths are never easy.

But he makes facing all the challenges bearable.

Thank you Heavenly Father.

Happy Monthsary love.

:)

xoxoxo

Word!

Remember I wrote earlier on that one of my close friend gave me advises on which was the better decision? It goes something like this quote I found online. From the book, He's Just Not That Into You.

"I'm about to make a wild, extreme and severe relationship rule: the word "busy" is a load of crap and is most often used by assholes. The word "busy" is the relationship Weapon of Mass Destruction. It seems like a good excuse, but in fact in every silo you uncover, all you're going to find is a man who didn't care enough to call. Remember, men are never too busy to get what they want." 

- Greg Behrenht

So now you know why.

Bye!

xoxoxo

Reposting

Hello loves.

Reading back on whatever nonsense I wrote on my blog and found this quote I posted up. Fits pefectly in my life situation now, especially after what I blabbed about few post earlier on. 

It's a quote by Nicholas Sparks from his book, The Rescue. 

"People come, people go - they'll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favourite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past."

There's a new important character in my life now.

:)

xoxoxo

Talking to the moon?

Miri's view of the moon tonight is breathtaking.

Makes me miss someone.

Because the moon reminds me of a song.

Bruno Mars - Talking To The Moon

Bruno Mars' songs reminds me of HIM.

So I extra miss that person tonight.

Goodnight.

xoxoxo

Slow and Steadfast

Hello poppets.

This is gonna be a short post.

Just wanted to write down what has been happening lately.

I've been having midnight conversations with someone lately.

We used to talk a lot on the phone.

But then there was a period where the two of us sort of drifted apart.

But only for a while.

Now that person is back, and we are getting along just fine.

I tell myself each and every time we talk on the phone that this is nothing much.

That this is only just friendship.

If it were to be something else, 

"Time Will Tell".

I gotta go now.

Crashed onto my cousins laptop for this short post while she's away busy.

Til next time then.

xoxoxo

What is Hope?

Do I look like I am still hoping?

How should one stop hoping?

Yes, I am hoping.

But then, people should know....

The things that we hope for changes as time passes.

Today I may be hoping for something, 

then tomorrow I might be hoping for something else.

"Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops at all" ~ Emily Dickinson

So keep on hoping people.

But don't let it stop you from living.

xoxoxo

Repeatingly

"Be safe always"

The phrase that has been repeating in my head since Saturday morning.

I love that phrase. I don't think I've told anyone about this before. And surprisingly, that person has been telling me this once in awhile. Ha-ha. Such a coincidence. 

Really is a blessing in disguise.

Went to the beach for a jog. The most soothing place to be on Earth. 

Running away from all the anxieties. 

:)

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"And I don't want the world to see me. "Coz I don't think that they'll understand."

Bed now. Have to get up early later.

Blessed Sunday lovely people.

xoxoxo

Wow!

I've just realized. 

This silly blog of mine has reached 1000 views.

Who are you people??

I assume you might have just by accidence come across this blog, read a few lines then faster leave this page. Because from my own opinion, this is one heck of a boring blog. 

Hahaha.

So I am surprised.

A short post

Okay okay okay! I know its past midnight and I should be asleep by now. But the problem is, I accidently fell asleep around 6pm and only woke up at 8.30pm. (¡_¡) Besides, it's always at times like this when I get the most ideas on what to write.

But, I've said earlier on in the tittle itself that this will be a short post. I am curently into the vintage bag craze. Since I saw a shop full with those cute bags in Kuching somewhere around Dec last year. But I missed out the opportunity to get myself one. Really felt bummed out. Until I found bags like those I saw back in Dec in a boutique in one of Miri's shopping mall. Yeah! So I got myself a bag (thanks to my generous lil sis who sponsered me) and I was happy.

Then! Just a while ago, my bestie's cousin (who's like family already to me) called and told me she bought a vintage bag for her sis but the sis already has one with d same colour. So she asked me whether I want the bag. Like HELL YEAH!! Hahaha.

So now I am more than happy. ;)

Ok that's all. Need to go to sleep 'coz I have to wake up early later. Breaskfast with darling bestie. At 8! Haha.

xoxo



p/s. I'm gonna have a new dress as well. N knowing this gal, she always chooses dresses that are cute and suits my taste. :)

Dootdoo dootdootdoo~~

:)

I went to someplace special to me today. Been quite sometimes since I last went there. Brings back special memories. Was kinda sad, yet happy in the same time. Haha.

Can we go back there on the 30th of August 2011?

I will do anything I can to be there, will you?

Btw, my sis came to Miri on Saturday. Even though I only spent like 2 hours with her, it felt like home. I miss her already. Mei, why can't you stay longer? Then I can do more many activities with you. Next time 'kay?

Better go to bed now.

:)

Don't judge me!

Found this when I was going thru my sent items in FB. Something that I did when I was bored.

Mi corazón :: Means my heart in Spanish

Mon cheri :: Means my dear in French

Cara mia :: Means my beloved in Italian

Schätzchen :: Means darling in German

Liubóv' moýa :: Means my love in Russian

Min elskede :: Means my love in Danish

Sirelis :: Means my beloved in Armenian

Moja sloneczko :: Means my sunshine in Polish

Bǎobèi :: Means precious in Mandarin

My heart's dearest :: Means YOU in Christine

Haha. Don't judge me! :)

Beep Boop Beep~~ :)

Forgive the unrelated title. I simply have no idea on the title for this post. While thinking on the suitable title, I suddenly remembered something that I posted as my fb status some months ago.

"My heart does not beep, it beats."

Hence, the Beep Boop title. Haha.

Feeling better today. Last night planned to watch a movie with a friend. But then when we arrived the cinema, the ticket was all sold out. *sobsob* So, we ended up sitting at Big Apple eating donuts and chatting till it was almost closing time (staffs pun dah jeling2 bg hint soh cpt pg). But it was the talk after that that made me feel better. Coz I finally know now who am I and how important I am. The way it is shown is different but I know now and I understand.

Needs and wants.
Which will you chose?
You gave me your answer last night.
Thank you.

Even though it still stings a bit, I think I'd be better know. Thank you for finally telling me and making me understand. And I hope that you do know that no matter what happens, you're still precious to me. Always.

Hey, guess what? I am finally ready.
:)

Lock Your Spot

All day long, the conversations revolving around me was about this website call Lock Your Spot. It's a network marketing company. My friend asked me to sign up last night and now she's pestering me to ask other people to join. So here I am pestering other people to join up as well coz it's free. But not for long. Will be launching soon. As I'm typing this, there's only 12 hours left. Haha.

Join me anyone?
http://www.lockyourspot.com/kistin12

Tonight I might be going out for a karaoke session with some friends. No, I am not a good singer. But I don't care. Friends better bring their earmuffs tonight. Haha. Owh, might go and watch Robin Hood as well. Love the director. The other movie that he made, Kingdom of Heaven was one of my favourites.

K, gtg now. Have to go pester someone else to join me in Lock Your Spot. 12 hours left!

Twinkle, twinkle little star ...

Just got back. Went somewhere just now, doing something. I can't tell the details, am not allowed to. But, I couldn't concentrate back then. Coz I was mesmerized by the stars. It was breathtaking ... If I could, I would have just laid there on the mat, gazing at the stars. It wasn't just 2 or 3 stars you know ... I'm talking about a sky filled with sparkling stars. *sigh* Beautiful ...

And it reminds me of an incident from the past ... Where I was actually laying on a mat, looking at the stars. Where? Hahaha. It's a favourite spot in Miri for star gazing. But where I was a while ago was someplace else ... And the stars were more sparkly than the night 5 years ago ... :)

Hey you, I miss gazing at the stars with you. I don't remember when was the last time we did it ... I guess we got so caught up with our daily life that we let the simple pleasures like these slip away ... Like taking a walk at the beach, going to the park, star gazing ... All those simple little pleasures. I miss doing all those stuffs .. It's not always about going shopping or movies you know? *sigh* But what's the use of me saying all this now. It's already too late for me ... :'(

Will anyone go star gazing with me? It calms me ever so much ...

Nite.

Rhythm of the falling rain ...

It was raining today. I walked to the bus stop under an umbrella. It was 7.30pm ... And at that moment, it felt that I was all alone in this whole wide world. It felt calm and soothing to hear the pitter-patter of raindrops on my umbrella with an occasional breeze blowing around. I love it when it rains ... *sigh*

It's in these little things that makes me remember. I don't think I've written about this incident in this blog. I used to walk in the rain, hand-in-hand with that someone precious. It was a long time ago ... But the feeling I felt at that moment, priceless and unforgetable. :)

Luckily it was dark when I was wallking to the bus stop. Or else people would thought that I was crazy. Coz I was tearing up, yet smiling at the same time.

Silly me, reminiscing while walking in the rain ..

This one is for you .. ..

You know who you are. I am sorry. I wanted to be the one to share your pain and relieve your burden. But I guess I'm just adding them.

This one is for you. Hope you understand. Although goodbyes are inevitable, there's no such things as goodbyes. You are always with me. In my heart and through the memories we've shared. Thank you for everything.

Immortality by Celine Dion

So this is who I am,
And this is all I know,
And I must choose to live,
For all that I can give,
The spark that makes the power grow
And I will stand for my dream if I can,
Symbol of my faith in who I am,
But you are my only,
And I must follow on the road that lies ahead,
And I won't let my heart control my head,
But you are my only
We don't say goodbye,
We don't say goodbye,
And I know what I've got to be

Immor-tality
I make my journey through eternity
I keep the memory of you and me inside

Fulfill your destiny,
Is there within the child,
My storm will never end,
My fate is on the wind,
The king of hearts, the joker's wild,
We don't say goodbye,
We don't say goodbye,
I'll make them all remember me

Cos I have found a dream that must come true,
Every ounce of me must see it through,
But you are my only
I'm sorry I don't have a role for love to play,
Hand over my heart I'll find my way,
I will make them give to me

Immor-tality (oh baby)
There is a vision and a fire in me (ohh)
I keep the memory of you and me, inside
We don't say goodbye
We don't say goodbye
With all my love for you
And what else we may do
We don't say, goodbye

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I won't let my heart control my head.
Goodbye, my heart's dearest.

Let It Be ... ...

Mein Honigbienchen,

Things have been tough for you these couple of weeks. I can understand what you are going through. Don't forget, I've been through that to, maybe worse, but the past is the past. I don't want to point faults at anyone. I guess some of your current problems were caused by me too. I'm sorry that I have not been more supportive. I'm sorry that sometimes I can be a pain in the ass. But I am learning to be better. And a person does not change overnight. Thank you for opening my eyes.

And now, I can only hope that you will be strong Honigbienchen. I've known you for almost 5 years now and in these few months, I see you're not being yourself. You've somehow have more patience. You've learn to compromise. You've admit mistakes even when it is not your fault. You've somehow became someone else ... And I can see that it's tiring you. Move on mein honigbienchen. Like what you've said, enough is enough ... You'll be fine soon. It will be hard but slowly you'll heal. If you need a friend to talk to, do know that I'm always here for you. Don't keep all your problems to yourself..

Move on honigbienchen. Maybe she doesn't love you enough to hear your explanation and admit her mistakes. You've done your part. I'm sorry that it did not work out as you've hoped. But you'll find someone better one day. Just be wiser this time and don't fall so fast. Stop and listen to your heart once in awhile. For sometimes, they whisper.

I better go now. By the way, this song is for you.

Remember,
"And when you need a place to run to, For better or worse, I got you."