Have you ever recalled how you used to be and seemed surprised at the difference with whom you've become? Ever wondered what has happened and wished that you could turn back time? Or maybe just feeling utterly helpless and so confused? I have.
It's just as the lyrics of Disney's Mulan OST, Reflection said,
"Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?"
Aku sik suka la dengan apa yang aku dah jadi. Jeles, pemarah, susah nak trust. Sapa tok? Bukan aku ya. Mun banding dengan dolok, jauh sekali beza eh. Aku sik mok. Sik suka. Lelah bah aku macam tok. Terpaksa sentiasa berpura-pura. Kena sentiasa senyum, tahan jak sakit. Sik mok .. Aku mok tetak terbabak-babak macam dolok. Sik pelu nak tapok apa-apa. Senyuman yang ada kat muka aku pun a smile of pure happiness. Ow, take me back to those days. please. Mun kawan-kawan aku dari High School nangga aku kinek tok mesti sidak sik kenal sapa tok. Sedih eh!
That's why I'm giving up on love. Been through too much and all the hurt I've kept bottled up inside had turned into poisoned, changing the who I am. I'm not meant to love and be loved in return. Look at what I've become. No, I can't go through everything again ..
Love was never meant to be for me ..
I feel so lost sometimes. I don't even know who am I anymore.
:'(
SOS
Help anyone?
