11.12.13

Look at the date.

I am not surprised that lots of people chose to get married today. It will be a long time til we get to see this date again. So people tend to make today's date a memorable date.

Me?

Same old, same old.

Woke up late for work, rushed like a crazy woman, worked my butt off, OT-ed as usually, came home tired.

Nithing memorable, at all.

How about u?

How did you spend your 11.12.13? 

Random blabberings.

Good night poppets!

xoxo

Burden off my chest

Missing ♥ tonight. Kinda hard to adjust back after having him with me for 7 nights in a row. Last night was the best. Pillow talks, telling each other more about ourselves and finally having the courage to open up about our own dark past.

I was surprised of his past. Yes I know no one is perfect. Heck, I've said that a few times before, stressing that I am not perfect. I listen, I understand, then I let go. Why should I hold on to his stories of his past? His past shaped his character today, all the lesson learnt to bring out a better person. I don't really care about his past. It's a future with him that I care about. Focus on today to create a better future together, yes? :)

Even my past has not been all rainbows and butterflies. There were things that I've hidden from my new circle of friends. Only those that I feel close and worthy knows about my past. And he deserves to know all of me, then he can decide whether he can accept me for who I am. That's why I finally had the courage to open up about my past. I know he was a bit shocked. But I can see that he tried to accept it.

Tell me, have you ever just suddenly realized how much in love you are with one person? And to wonder how is it even possible to fall even more in love as each day passes. If all the heartache and pain I've been through for the past few years were meant to lead me to this person, I have no regrets. In fact, I will do it all over again and not change a thing. Just as long as in the end, I get to meet, know, like and love this guy. Thank you Heavenly Father, for answering my prayer. Could You go even further to give us courage to face any obstacles that You would place before us as tests.

I love this guy. He really is different. Being with him, I dont have to always be conversing. Just having him near me with the silence hanging around us, makes me feel safe. Just because he is near me.

Can't wait to see what the future has in stored for us.
Just like the lyrics from my all time fave song (and a must wedding song!) At The Beginning by Donna Lewis & Richard Marx.

"We were strangers, on a crazy adventure. Never dreaming how our dreams would come true."

Off to bed. Yes I know its a bit early for me. But then I didn't had enough sleep (coz I rather be awake talking to him) and woke up early to pack and clean up my room and stuffs. I am now currently at my aunt's place, job hunting. Bit far from that some one but thanking the Lord that we are actually still within driving distance.

So, good night now poppets.

xoxoxo

Word!

Remember I wrote earlier on that one of my close friend gave me advises on which was the better decision? It goes something like this quote I found online. From the book, He's Just Not That Into You.

"I'm about to make a wild, extreme and severe relationship rule: the word "busy" is a load of crap and is most often used by assholes. The word "busy" is the relationship Weapon of Mass Destruction. It seems like a good excuse, but in fact in every silo you uncover, all you're going to find is a man who didn't care enough to call. Remember, men are never too busy to get what they want." 

- Greg Behrenht

So now you know why.

Bye!

xoxoxo

What does a smile means?

So what is a smile?

A smile is a facial expression that we use to express feelings of being happy, pleased, and every other blissful feelings we have. In short, it is known as the silent laughter.

But then, is that the only meaning of a smile now days?
I don't think so...

Now days, a smile has many different meanings.
Although still mainly used to show happiness, people now uses smile to cover up their embaressment or shyness. For example, when meeting some one new and you're feelung a bit awkward. What should you do so that the other person does not feel awkward too and thinks bad about you? Why, you smile.

:)

What else?
A smile is also used to hide away what you're really feeling inside.
This type of smile has been perfected by all those heartbroken girls.
Sad and empty inside, but to tired of answering the people around them. So they put on a brave smile and hope it is convincing enough.

What else?

There are so much more. But this girl has to stop and continue on her assignment which is due tomorrow at 5pm. Another 700 words to go.

Before I sign off, here's a recent picture of me.
SMILING.

What type of smile is that?

=) 

xoxoxo

Talking to the moon?

Miri's view of the moon tonight is breathtaking.

Makes me miss someone.

Because the moon reminds me of a song.

Bruno Mars - Talking To The Moon

Bruno Mars' songs reminds me of HIM.

So I extra miss that person tonight.

Goodnight.

xoxoxo

Mad World?

Hello.

Listening to the Glee Project's version of Mad World now.

It says a bit on what I've been feeling for the month of November.

A lot has happened since my last emo post.

Everyday I am learning.

Hey, people always say that I am a strong person, so that means I should be strong right?

A friend says that my heart is stubborn and that my eyes are blind.

Hm...maybe he is right.

But then, forgive me for being like that.

The past has really changed me, a lot.

Besides that all, results are out.

And looks like I will be seeing Curtin again next year.

Not as its graduate but as its student again.

Crap.

What else?

Oh, the other him is back.

And acting a bit weird.

Close friends are telling me to let loose this time.

But how can they understand that I am afraid that history will repeat itself again.

I cannot and will not go through that again.

"Time will tell."

December is just a few more hours again.

2010's December has been hellish.

How will 2011's December treat me?

I have 4 friends getting married this December.

And I am so happy for them.

:)

Other than that, I hope 2011's ending will be nice.

Better go shower now.

Take care loves.

xoxo

Forgive me...

...but I lied.

You told me it would be hard to find another if I would stick to you. You said it would be hard cause I would be comparing everyone else with you. You said I would miss out a lot if I did not open up my eyes to the other possibilities in life.

And what did I answered?

I smiled and told you not to worry because I would not compare.

But I lied.

Unintentionally.

How can I not compare? 

It's the little things that made me smile.

Sure, we're nothing more than friends that are comfortable with each other.

And I am fine with that.

But still, forgive me.

I am comparing. 

Even though just a bit.

A song that belongs to my past

I don't know why, but today this songs popped into my head and is stucked there ever since. Making me unstable. Gahh!!

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Ni Na Me Ai Ta
(You Love Her So Much)


zhi dao ai xiao shi ni cai dong de
You will only understand after love disappears
qu zhen xi shen bian mei ge mei hao feng jing
To appreciate all the beautiful scenery in front of you
zhi shi ta zao yi li qu
It's just that she has already left earlier
zhi dao ni xiang tong ta zao yi jing
Until you've thought it over,she has already
bu zai dui ni liu lian
Lost all her love for you
zui hou de ni
In the end
kai shi le yi duan zheng zha
You found yourself tangled in a struggle


ni na me ai ta
You love her so much
wei shen me bu ba ta liu xia
Why didn't you make her stay
wei shen me bu shuo xin li hua
Why didn't you say the words of your heart
ni shen ai ta
You love her deeply
zhe shi mei ge ren dou zhi dao a
Everyone knows that


ni na me ai ta
You love her so much
wei shen me bu ba ta liu xia
Why didn't you make her stay
shi bu shi ni you shen ai de liang ge ta
Is it that you have two of her that you love deeply
suo yi ni bu xiang zai rang zi ji wu fa zi ba
That's why you don't want to make it hard to pull yourself out of this

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Ok, off for class.

xoxo

October Octopus

October is here. Finals will be here soon. Damn. I am so not ready. Will have to start my revision soon. *sigh*

Okays... Since I am feeling a bit sleepy now, I will just go straight to the point. This post will be on 2 topics.

(1) Curtin Prom

(2) Vision of my future [Maybe]

So, Curtin University of Technology's Prom Night 2011.

30th of September 2011

Imperial Hotel, Miri Sarawak.

Theme : Red Carpet Soiree

Kudos to Ian for the lovely picture.

Gratitudes to Mamik for this group photo of my girls and I. 

Prom was ok. Night out to spend with the girls. 

It was the After Party that tired me out. Plus with the swimming activity I did the next day. Whoa. My feet was like numb for the whole day right up til Sunday (02/10). What do you expect when you've been wearing heels for almost 9 hours? Haha. Yes, beauty is pain. But still, I'd say it was worth it. Coz I had fun. :)

And so, moving on.

Cooked dinner with one of my bestie aka roommate. After we finished eating, we were just sitting there. Talking about random stuffs that has been happening. Then all of the sudden, she said to me "I have a vision of you in the future. Its a picture of you, standing next to a guy. The guy is tall, fair-skinned and has good body shape. He has a calm expression but I can see that he is also sweet and funny. Easy to get along with, talks a lot but at times can be quiet. He has a good job and has a high position in his job." 

Ok, that freaked me out. Coz, this girl here, she always has these instincts of when something good or bad is going to happen. And so far, her instincts are always right. So, to have her suddenly say all this while we wee in the middle of a conversation about some random stuff, scary. And that's not all she said. After laughing around to calm down when hearing she said all that, she continued again.

"He will be wearing a white-collared shirt. You are standing on his right. At the time the pic was taken, you both just started to know each other. I can see that coz the both of you are not standing close together. And I know how you like to pose for pics. But in this pic, you were very shy."

"I can see his face clearly. If he were to walk by me, I will be able to recognize him."

Actually, the whole time she was talking about this guy, there is one person on my mind and I hoped it was not him. When I told her, she immediately said, "No, he is not the one. I saw his pic and they are not the same guy."

Scary right? Wanna know what is more scary after that? Browsed through pictures of friends in FB and when she saw one, she straight-away laughed and hide her face. Then looked at me and said, "Remember k? He is wearing a white-collared shirt. Remember."

Damn. Scary.

Ok, off to bed. Huhuhu

xoxoxo

Red is Sexy??

Just a random post on a Sunday evening. Wasting precious time before going off to the beach for a jog later. Hm, I have lots of sunset pics from my jogging activities. Maybe will post 'em up later when I'm free (or procrastinating). ;)

Yesterday, the girls and I went shopping for Prom. Yes, Prom is coming real soon!! This Friday, 30th September. The theme, Red Carpet Soiree. 

And so, while out Prom accessories hunting, we went hunting for that Oh-So-Sexy Red lipstick that matches us. Tried on so many that I got really tired of lipsticks. And FYI, I am soooo not a lipstick person. *sigh* But then, we found the colour that seems okay... (And means more to me I guess. Coz I really dun look good in lipsticks.) 

And, girls being girls, once we have one something new, what else do we do best?

CAM-WHORING!!

Hahaha.

Red is OH-SO-SEXY-HOT!!

Hahaha.

Okthanksbye!!

xoxoxo

Music helps me get by

These eyes of mine seriously has problem. Can't sleep. *sigh*

Topic for tonight, music. 

Music really is my life, well not literally. But then, without music, I don't know how I would be able to get through those rough days when I just feel like breaking down. Seriously. Music helped me get by.

In times of sadness, mad, happiness, bored. 

I find most of my cures in MUSIC.

:)

Beautiful song with beautiful meanings.

Leona Lewis is always a favourite. Her songs always relates to me.

Love Songs from 2000 to 2010

I've sang along each and every one of these songs and some of them played a significant rle in some part of my life. :)

Ok. This is a random song from one of the Disney's cartoons that I grew up watching.

This particular song is one of my favourite from that cartoon. Haha

"Go on and kiss the girl"

And this song, also from Disney is a song that I love coz it somehow teaches us about life.

"Your journey has only begun"

Ok. 4 videos in one post should be more than enough. :)

xoxoxox

More distractions

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!


Taken from here. 


xoxoxo

Wow!

I've just realized. 

This silly blog of mine has reached 1000 views.

Who are you people??

I assume you might have just by accidence come across this blog, read a few lines then faster leave this page. Because from my own opinion, this is one heck of a boring blog. 

Hahaha.

So I am surprised.

Glee~

I am hooked onto Glee. Songs from the new episodes are so ... I don't have the right words to describe them. Haha. They even sang Total Eclipse of the Heart. Aww .. It's one of my favourites. Used to dedicate that song to someone back in 2008. Love the Glee version of it. :)

But, there is one particular song that got stucked in my head since the night I watched it. Haha. Run, Joey Run.

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[Rachel Berry]
Daddy please don’t it wasn’t his fault
He means so much to me
Daddy please don’t, we’re gonna get married
Just you wait and see

[Noah Puckerman]
Every night the same old dream I hate to close my eyes
I can’t erase the memory the sound of Julie’s cry
She called me up late that night she said :
Joe, don’t come over
My Dad and I just had a fight
And he stormed out the door

I’ve never seen him act this way,
My God, he’s goin’ crazy
He said he’s gonna make you pay
For what we done, he’s got a gun!

So run, Joey run, Joey run

[Rachel Berry]
Daddy please don’t, it wasn’t his fault
He means so much to me
Daddy please don’t, we’re gonna get married
Just you wait and see

[Jesse St. James]
Got in my car and I drove like mad
Til I reached Julie’s place
She ran to me, with tear-filled eyes and bruises on her face
All at once I saw him there sneaking up behind me (watch-out!)
Then Julie yelled, “He’s got a gun!”
And she stepped in front of me

[Finn Hudson]
Suddenly, a shot rang out and I saw Julie falling
I ran to her, I held her close
When I looked down, my hands were red
And here’s the last words Julie said

[Rachel Berry]
Daddy please don’t, it wasn’t his fault
He means so much to me
Daddy please don’t, we’re gonna get married

aaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaah

Run, Joey run, Joey run, Joey run, Joey run
Joey run, Joey run…..!

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Hehe.
Ok bye.
Have to get back to my revisions.
Final exams.
Grrr~
:S

Unwanted and unneeded stress!

Adaka perkataan 'unneeded' ya? Wujud ka? Ntahla. Mlm tok aku mls mk tls lam English. Skali-skala, xhal la..

Td aku ngga profile pic sorg miak d FB. Pasya ttgk cgek gamba len gk. Siap ngn komen2 kat sia. Ntah phl la miak ya. Kali nya ya sngaja mk polah aku skt ati kot.. Haruska ngkah gmba ya jd profile pic? That pic should nvr been uploaded in the first place. Nah, ckp lam English lg da. Nang manas la aku tok.. Bangga glk la ko ada gamba cmya? Xpelu nak ngeso ngn suma org bh. Taukla family ko sporting, xkesah apa2. Igt family gerek ko mcm ya juak? Gerek ko xpdh apa2 bknnya maksud nya suka ko ngkah gamba cmya kat FB ko. Tp nya diam sbb tkt ko kecik ati lak.


Ataupun sbnrnya gerek ko ya pun suka juak kali. Ya nya reply juak komen kat gamba ko ya. Haih. Aku xphmla.. Nya da xkesah ka mun ada family member or kwn parents nya tgk gamba n komen ya? Aku gk bengong pike sal ya. Aku nang bna2 bharap ada family member gerek ko ngga gamba ya. Mun xpun, kwn2 parents gerek ko. Dpt cdak pdh ngn parents gerek ko. Kali ya yg dmaok ko and gerek ko ya nak? Fine. Trskan upload gamba2 mcm ya n komen2 n tls bnda pelik2 kat wall gerek ko. Klk aku blh tlg tag gamba2 ya suma. Aku bait hati bh. Mok tlg ko spread the happy news. Ya yg ko mok kan? N gerek ko juak kan? Mok suma org tauk ya gerek ko. As if you're saying HANDS OFF! Whatever... Aku mk ngga cmne ko lak bla gerek ko dlarang dr jumpa ko. Bodo kali nak? Xpande pike. Pelik2..

Kali aku ptt delete jak ko dr FB list aku. Phl aku xdelete2 gk pun aku heran. Lekak apa ko plh kat aku riya, aku ptt delete trs. Bodo kali aku tok nak? Haih. Stress bh aku oleh ko tok. Sengaja kali nak ko plh aku cmtk... Btw, ko sdr x smthg. Cb pg ngga gamba2 kat FB gerek ko ya. Ada ko ngga gamba ko? Lgsg xda.. Ko xrasa pelik ka? Ya mksdnya gerek ko bhati2. Xmk dak family nya tauk, bodo. Mun x, da lmk da nya ngkah gamba ktk 2 bmesra2. Ya pun xphm. Ko pulak g post gamba skati. Sah xpande pike. Tp yg aku xphm, gerek ko mcm mok diam2 tp msh juak g komen mcm ya kat gamba ktk 2. Haih. Mknla aku bengong. Xku phm eh!

Dala2. Mkn ku klaka, mkn stress jadi aku tok. Ko nang salu plh mood ku xbgs. Knkla insan ya bodo glk g bckp ngn ko masa dinner riya owh? Haih. Geram aku. Dala. Buang masa aku jak. Lbh bait aku bpura2 happy, sak org sekeliling aku pun happy juak. No thanks to u.

Nite.

This tickled my heart :)

Found this while I was browsing through the internet on Thursday. I was looking for puppies and kittens when I found this image.

:))

Off to bed now,

P.S I Love You :)

Last night I watched the P.S I Love You movie. Cried my eyes out. Haha. Yes I know, I'm a crybaby .. Been searching and searching for the book ever since a read the review of it in a magazine few years back. Sadly, couldn't find any copy. Huh!




After watching the movie, I'm definitely goin to try harder to get a copy of the book!




MUST~!!

Hmm ... ...

Tell me why?

Tell me how?

Something diferent~

What do you think?

TGIF~!!!!!

Yeah~!!! It's Friday~!! My holiday has officially started~!!

After 2 weeks of hard work and late nite sleep, I think I deserve to some rest. 2 weeks of fun and rest. Yeah~!! Haha.