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Hello!

If there are any readers for this poor blog of mine, I'm sure these readers would realize that I am a BIG fan of Big Bang. Big Bang is finally coming to Malaysia in October, and guess who got tickets to go watch them?

ME!

:) :) :) :) :) 

Can't wait!

This will be a dream come true!

xoxoxoxo

I Won't Forget

I don't have to say much.

This song says it all..

Aoyama Thelma - Wasurenai Yo (I Won't Forget)

Translations

Can I still believe in you? 
Even though it's difficult I'd want to believe, mmm
I'm sure this is love
It is something lasting 
As you were the first person who taught me

I'm not saying it's a promise 
It's not a promise
Because words are just vague right?
It's more simple 
To be loved
I'm just delighted

I'll be waiting, 
I won't forget, I won't forget
That's why today as normal
I will be waiting just like that day
Even though I feel lonely I'm fine
How you said "welcome back"
And embraced me 
It's as if I hear
The beat of your warm chest
Missing you

Nothing changed everything were still normal
Only you were gone
The rest surrounding us, story were gone
The city that's in my eyes is foreign

I'm not saying it's a promise 
It's not a promise
As it won't change and I will just be hurt right? I'm sure 
I have no special instincts nor anxious feelings
I just want to see you

I'll be waiting 
Whatever happens, whatever happens it's something I always want to remember
that's why It's something I'll always keep saying
The comfort I felt when you said "Welcome Back" and when you embraced me still remains
missing you 

(I'm not saying it's a promise) no it's not 
(but I still believe) I believe, I believe, I believe 
(it's not something like a promise) Even though it's not a promise 
But I just want to see you

I'll be waiting, 
I won't forget, I won't forget
That's why today as normal
I will be waiting just like that day
Even though I feel lonely I'm fine
How you said "welcome back"
And embraced me 
It's as if I hear
The beat of your warm chest
Missing you

Whatever happens, whatever happens it's something I'll always want to remember
That's why I'll always keep saying
The comfort I felt when you said "welcome back" and embraced me
Still remains 

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ただ逢いたいから 

xoxoxo

October Octopus

October is here. Finals will be here soon. Damn. I am so not ready. Will have to start my revision soon. *sigh*

Okays... Since I am feeling a bit sleepy now, I will just go straight to the point. This post will be on 2 topics.

(1) Curtin Prom

(2) Vision of my future [Maybe]

So, Curtin University of Technology's Prom Night 2011.

30th of September 2011

Imperial Hotel, Miri Sarawak.

Theme : Red Carpet Soiree

Kudos to Ian for the lovely picture.

Gratitudes to Mamik for this group photo of my girls and I. 

Prom was ok. Night out to spend with the girls. 

It was the After Party that tired me out. Plus with the swimming activity I did the next day. Whoa. My feet was like numb for the whole day right up til Sunday (02/10). What do you expect when you've been wearing heels for almost 9 hours? Haha. Yes, beauty is pain. But still, I'd say it was worth it. Coz I had fun. :)

And so, moving on.

Cooked dinner with one of my bestie aka roommate. After we finished eating, we were just sitting there. Talking about random stuffs that has been happening. Then all of the sudden, she said to me "I have a vision of you in the future. Its a picture of you, standing next to a guy. The guy is tall, fair-skinned and has good body shape. He has a calm expression but I can see that he is also sweet and funny. Easy to get along with, talks a lot but at times can be quiet. He has a good job and has a high position in his job." 

Ok, that freaked me out. Coz, this girl here, she always has these instincts of when something good or bad is going to happen. And so far, her instincts are always right. So, to have her suddenly say all this while we wee in the middle of a conversation about some random stuff, scary. And that's not all she said. After laughing around to calm down when hearing she said all that, she continued again.

"He will be wearing a white-collared shirt. You are standing on his right. At the time the pic was taken, you both just started to know each other. I can see that coz the both of you are not standing close together. And I know how you like to pose for pics. But in this pic, you were very shy."

"I can see his face clearly. If he were to walk by me, I will be able to recognize him."

Actually, the whole time she was talking about this guy, there is one person on my mind and I hoped it was not him. When I told her, she immediately said, "No, he is not the one. I saw his pic and they are not the same guy."

Scary right? Wanna know what is more scary after that? Browsed through pictures of friends in FB and when she saw one, she straight-away laughed and hide her face. Then looked at me and said, "Remember k? He is wearing a white-collared shirt. Remember."

Damn. Scary.

Ok, off to bed. Huhuhu

xoxoxo

Hopeless...

In reality it would be hopeless in ever meeting you again.
So can we meet up in my dreams?
My dreamland would also become my fantasyland.
A place to forget the harsh reality.
So, let's go.
I'll wait.

*gasp*

I don't know why but lately I've been having really really bad dreams. Recently it had gotten worse. Huhu. I know before this I've had bad dreams before but it is usually about some one else. This time my dreams (or should I say nightmare) is all about me. Sometimes the dream would be really bad that I'd wake up gasping for air, sometimes even crying.

I don't really remember all of my dreams or even every details of the dreams I had. But I knew there was one thing in common for all of those dreams. ***** was always in those dreams. My friends said that I was thinking too much. But sometimes, those dreams would come even when I had not a single thought of ***** the whole day.

Few weeks ago, I dreamt that when I return to my room after classes, I found that my room had been ransacked. Everything was in disorder. Across the wall in red paints were the words 'Perempuan Keji' and so on. While I was cleaning up my room, I received a message from ***** asking me whether I liked her little artwork.

Last week, I dreamt that I was running as hard as I can 'coz ***** was chasing after me while waving around a parang. ***** kept on screaming at me to leave XX and her alone and that I should just mind my own business. Do you know how scary it felt? No matter how hard I ran, ***** was always a few steps behind me.

Few days ago, I dreamt that I was tied onto a chair while ***** and her family stood around me. Then one by one, they started to slapped me in the face. While they slapped me, they kept on saying that they doing this 'coz I deserved it. That's what I get for disturbing ***** relationship with XX. Even the little niece slapped and scratched me. The pain I felt in that dream felt so real that when I woke up, I checked my arms and legs expecting to see scratch marks left there.

Last night was the worse dream of it all. I was being chopped, alive. *sobsob* It was terrible. ***** was standing there, looking at me with malice reflecting in her eyes. In her hand was an axe (sounds like any ordinary horror movie right. Not funny.). She kept on saying over and over again that I was a hypocrite. That I should have stayed away from XX and just leave the both of them to be. I should have minded my own business and erase XX from my mind. And while ***** was saying all of this, she began to chop of my hands, SLOWLY. Then my feet. Then she dragged a blunt knife over my neck, drawing blood from the shallow wound. She said that I should just bleed to death. That dream seemed so real that when I woke up, my pillow was wet from tears. Luckily I didn't cried out loud or else I would have a hard time explaining my dreams to my room mate. But the pain, ow the pain. I cannot find the words to describe the pain I felt. Hurts even more than a heartache. :( Lets just say I hope to never feel such pain in reality.

Now, I'm afraid of *****. I know that she did not really do any of those stuff, nor will she ever do it in reality. But I cannot deny, I am afraid of *****.

What should I do?

Please, please, please go away silly unrealistic bad dreams. :'(

p/s: Saya ada cuci kaki sebelum tidur ok?