What does a smile means?

So what is a smile?

A smile is a facial expression that we use to express feelings of being happy, pleased, and every other blissful feelings we have. In short, it is known as the silent laughter.

But then, is that the only meaning of a smile now days?
I don't think so...

Now days, a smile has many different meanings.
Although still mainly used to show happiness, people now uses smile to cover up their embaressment or shyness. For example, when meeting some one new and you're feelung a bit awkward. What should you do so that the other person does not feel awkward too and thinks bad about you? Why, you smile.

:)

What else?
A smile is also used to hide away what you're really feeling inside.
This type of smile has been perfected by all those heartbroken girls.
Sad and empty inside, but to tired of answering the people around them. So they put on a brave smile and hope it is convincing enough.

What else?

There are so much more. But this girl has to stop and continue on her assignment which is due tomorrow at 5pm. Another 700 words to go.

Before I sign off, here's a recent picture of me.
SMILING.

What type of smile is that?

=) 

xoxoxo

I Won't Forget

I don't have to say much.

This song says it all..

Aoyama Thelma - Wasurenai Yo (I Won't Forget)

Translations

Can I still believe in you? 
Even though it's difficult I'd want to believe, mmm
I'm sure this is love
It is something lasting 
As you were the first person who taught me

I'm not saying it's a promise 
It's not a promise
Because words are just vague right?
It's more simple 
To be loved
I'm just delighted

I'll be waiting, 
I won't forget, I won't forget
That's why today as normal
I will be waiting just like that day
Even though I feel lonely I'm fine
How you said "welcome back"
And embraced me 
It's as if I hear
The beat of your warm chest
Missing you

Nothing changed everything were still normal
Only you were gone
The rest surrounding us, story were gone
The city that's in my eyes is foreign

I'm not saying it's a promise 
It's not a promise
As it won't change and I will just be hurt right? I'm sure 
I have no special instincts nor anxious feelings
I just want to see you

I'll be waiting 
Whatever happens, whatever happens it's something I always want to remember
that's why It's something I'll always keep saying
The comfort I felt when you said "Welcome Back" and when you embraced me still remains
missing you 

(I'm not saying it's a promise) no it's not 
(but I still believe) I believe, I believe, I believe 
(it's not something like a promise) Even though it's not a promise 
But I just want to see you

I'll be waiting, 
I won't forget, I won't forget
That's why today as normal
I will be waiting just like that day
Even though I feel lonely I'm fine
How you said "welcome back"
And embraced me 
It's as if I hear
The beat of your warm chest
Missing you

Whatever happens, whatever happens it's something I'll always want to remember
That's why I'll always keep saying
The comfort I felt when you said "welcome back" and embraced me
Still remains 

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ただ逢いたいから 

xoxoxo

Distraction or Motivation

This is a long overdue post.

Been thinking about this for quite some time now.

But never could find the right ways to put it into words.

I guess what triggered me to write this post was because I dreamt of you again. But this time, it was during my short nap after my morning class.

You're in my mind. Not only today, but you've always been there. Every single waking moments, you there. Even when I am laughing with my friends, taking notes in class, talking nonsense with my besties or even jogging along the beach.. You are there, at the back of my mind. 

I don't like it.

I think the main reason I am like this is because I am afraid. Because truthfully, I've never been able to imagine my future with anyone else but you. Yes there has been past relationships and crushes. But you've always been there, in that one corner of my heart.

Why did you go and tell me such things last December? I was doing fine, keeping you safe and sound in that little corner of my heart while I go on with life, mixing around and meeting new people. Those once in a blue moon calls or texts from you was enough. When you starting giving me mixed signals, I was able to laugh it off and convinced myself that you were just being a very concerned close friend. All because I don't want us to drift apart again. But then you just had to go and break down my walls again by saying the big L word to me. As if the L word wasn't enough, you brought up the M word too. And now, where are we?

Those once in a blue moon calls and texts are not enough anymore. I wanna hear from you, everyday! Those mixed signals you give me, I can't shake them off so easily anymore. It confuses me and makes me uncomfortable. Meeting you only once a sem is not enough anymore. I wanna see you more frequently.

You told me that all these while you stayed away from me because you were afraid that you might be a distraction. You were afraid that I would not focus all of my attention into my studies. But then, why do you prefer to stay away in fear of being a distraction? When you could have just stayed and be my motivation? Wouldn't being a motivation be so much better?

I miss you, too damn much that it hurts.
But I am afraid to tell you.
Coz I know it will push you further away than you are now.

fml

xoxoxo

Talking to the moon?

Miri's view of the moon tonight is breathtaking.

Makes me miss someone.

Because the moon reminds me of a song.

Bruno Mars - Talking To The Moon

Bruno Mars' songs reminds me of HIM.

So I extra miss that person tonight.

Goodnight.

xoxoxo

New lullaby

I've always had trouble in sleeping sometimes.

I think it's obvious from the times of my posts.

And I think I've said it many times too.

I just can't sleep sometimes.

So usually I'll listen to soft songs or musical instruments as my lullaby.

I actually have a playlists of songs that are my lullabies.

That playlist of mine contains lots of Yiruma's music.

Love love love Yiruma.

Trying my best to play one of his piece, "River Flows In You."

My cousins can play it on the piano now.

I've just started trying.

Slow progress coz my fingers are stiff from not playing on the piano for a long time.

And I do not always have access to a piano.

Anyway, this is a song that a friend of mine introduced.

The first time I heard it, straight away into my Lullaby Playlist.

I love the melody and also the lyrics.

It's Taylor Swift ft. The Civil Wars.

Safe and Sound

I remember tears streaming down your face

When I said "I'll never let you go"

When all those shadows almost killed your light

I remember you said "Don't leave me here alone"

But all that's dead and gone and past tonight

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window

Darling everything's on fire

The war outside our door keeps raging on

Hold on to this lullaby

Even when the music's gone

Gone

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

[INSTRUMENTAL]

Just close your eyes

You'll be alright

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

Sleep tight loves.

Stay safe and sound.

xoxoxo

Big Bang Fever

Tick-Tock, Tick-Tock

Throughout the day, I've been patiently waiting for the stroke of midnight.

Why, you ask?

I am patiently waiting for the release of Big Bang's new MV

Friends of mine in FB surely must be tired of me already. 

I think I've spammed their recent news timeline with enough pictures and videos of Big Bang.

Especially Dong Youngbae, or better known by his stage name of Taeyang.

Bwahahaha! 

Yeah, I am a fan of Big Bang.

My apologies to all my non KPop fan friends on FB (and also on Twitter).

But their voice, compared to other Kpop bands, waayyyy better.

My apologies again to non Big Bang fans.

But how can you resist the rapping skills of G.Dragon?

How can you resist TOP's deep voice?

How can you ever resist Taeyang's dance skills?

How can you resist Seungri's voice?

How can you resist Daesung's fun personality?

How on earth can you resist BIG BANG???

Yeah, Big Bang fever.

Ok bye!

I think the MV is already released.

"Wow, Fanstatic baby."

*screamslikehighschoolgirl*

xoxoxoxo

2012

Whoa.

It's already the month of March. I haven't been for quite some time now. Not that I don't have anything to write about. Heck, I have LOTS to write about. I was just too lazy to switch on my laptop and type. Yeah, this is what happens when my dad introduced Le Tab into our family and hands it over to me. I do everything with Le Tab now. My Baby Galaxy is only for calling, Tweeting and Whatsapp-ing. Yes, I can blog with Le Tab. But my fingers are too fat and I keep on creating typos. And besides, it doesn't feel the same to be using anything else besides my laptop for creating blog-posts. 

So, what's new?

Week 2 for Semester 1, 2012 has started. And me, being oh-so-clever is back with only 2 units to complete. Which means I only have 4 classes per week. Mondays and Tuesdays are no classes days. Then for Wednesdays and Thursdays I'll be free by the afternoons. And as for Fridays, only 1 and a half hour of class to attend. So, I am very free. For now. 

Spent my RM200 book voucher on 7 new books. 3 for me, 2 for my lil brother, 1 for my bestie and the last is for someone. So for the moment, I have 5 books to be read (1 a gift from a friend and 1 borrowed). Oh, and speaking of that someone....

That someone is the same person I talked about on my last post. Things have developed amongst us, and yet we are still as before. In fact, I met up with him again end of December. We went out for some drinks and just catch up. But then, the drinking session went wrong. Oh my, I am not a good drinker. And him, he blurted out something that means made me confuse. I don't know whether it was his intention or not but what he said that night made everything I've questioned before makes sense. But where do we stand now? Still no strings attached.
 "Time will tell."

What else??

My room mate is pregnant! I am so excited for her! 

So far, I have 4 pregnant friends and 1 new mum. 

Like wow. 

Sometimes I wonder, when is it my turn. Coz I am a big fan of babies and toddlers.

But then, I am in no rush.

So, I guess this should be enough for tonight.

Le Tab is calling me. :)

Until next post.

xoxoxo