4 months

My paths are never easy.

But he makes facing all the challenges bearable.

Thank you Heavenly Father.

Happy Monthsary love.

:)

xoxoxo

What is Love?

Love is a slow kiss goodnight, it's anticipation.
Love is flirting ourtageously and still remembering that the person at your side is not obligated to do anything, it's respect.
Love is an imperfection in your self not bothering you, it's acceptance.
Love is passing up an opportunity because the time isn't right yet, it's patience.
Love is a back massage that starts above the hairline and ends around the insoles, it's exploration.
Love does not have to say, "lets make love," because you know what the other person wants, it understanding.
Love is being given an honest chance to say no when you thought you were committed, it's consideration.
Love is both of you remembering protection, it's responsibility.
Love is saying the perfect phrase to make a solemn embrace dissolve into giggles, it's humor.
Love is being told "stop and I'll kill you." It's desire.
Love is reviewing the damge to your living room and realizing personal effects are strewn in a clockwise pattern from the front door the to bedroom, it's abandonment.
Love is seeing what your love really looks like for the first time, it's truth.
Love is knowing what time it is and not caring, it's joy.
Love is the arms around you tightening their embrace, it's ecstasy.
Love is seeing a new side of a person you thought you knew, it's renewal.
Love is telling a person if you have to leave, you will let them sleep, and being told they would rather be woken, it's tenderness.
Love is waking up to find the subject of the dream you were having asleep on your shoulder, it's where fantasy meets reality.
Love is being there to wake your lover slowly, it's sensuousness.
Love belatedly knows why you bothered to buy a queen-sized bed three years ago, it's practicality.
Love is two people only taking up a third of a queen-sized bed, it's closeness.
Love knows you gave the extra set of keys to your apartment to the right person, it's trust.
Love is saying good-bye and knowing you will be back by mutual consent, it's faith.
Love is stretching your arms and discovering the real meaning of the word "sore" it's a lesson in human frailty.
Love is opening your medicine cabinet finding your tube of toothpaste turned into a prezel, it's adaptation.
Love is sitting at the window, looking out and remembering who you were with the night before, it's reflection.
Love is hearing the weather forecast for a winter storm and wishing you could spend it in bed with your lover, it's loneliness.
Love is stories that will never be told, it's personal.


Found this online at some website. I kind of like some parts of it.

xoxoxo

Read!

While cleaning up my notes and stuff yesterday, I found a collection of quotes that I wrote down. I am a quote freak. I love quotes. 

This one particular quote us a bit long. Bear with it for moment. Read through. The meaning made me smile. And the whole time I read through this quote yesterday, only one oerson stayed in my mind. 

"Once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals which were never achieved and many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitment. They are not embaressed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they want to hurt your feelings or make you feel like you were not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only the quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seemed insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood comes back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughters seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face. In their pressence there is no need for continous conversation, but you would find you're quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before becomes fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is special to you. You think of this person in every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart, knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you have never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life." -Bob Marley

So who comes to your mind when you read through this?

;)

Take care loves.

xoxoxo

Word!

Remember I wrote earlier on that one of my close friend gave me advises on which was the better decision? It goes something like this quote I found online. From the book, He's Just Not That Into You.

"I'm about to make a wild, extreme and severe relationship rule: the word "busy" is a load of crap and is most often used by assholes. The word "busy" is the relationship Weapon of Mass Destruction. It seems like a good excuse, but in fact in every silo you uncover, all you're going to find is a man who didn't care enough to call. Remember, men are never too busy to get what they want." 

- Greg Behrenht

So now you know why.

Bye!

xoxoxo

依然爱你?

This is unexpected.

Before I go on with this post, I'd like to share a quote I read few weeks ago.

"Your absence has been too long, that your presence doesn't matter anymore."

Yeah. Exactly what I wanna talk about.

I never thought it would come to this. I never thought there could/might be a different future with someone different other than you. But the sad thing is, it will and is happening right now. You're so confusing, and I guess you always will. I'll never truly understand what is it you actually want from me, from us (if there ever was an us in your head). Motivation or Distraction? You chose to stay away, to stay quiet. Ignoring me or anything about me. I guess you have your own reasons. 

You always told me to let things be.

"Time will tell."

And time has shown me.

Time has shown me that we were never meant to be.

You will never be anything more to me than just a tiny feeling that I'd keep away at the corner of my heart. 

Time has shown me that there's another who is not afraid to show his effort no matter how busy or tired he is. And as time passes, time has shown me that I am not attracted to this guy, I'm actually falling in love. 

Then what was the feeling I had for you before time showed me my real feelings? I'm guessing, it's more to the sense of nostalgia... 

How you are always able to remind how I was before and made that character reappear after all the drama I've been through, maybe I was just holding on to that. 

I am not sure....

But what I am sure, its goodbye.

Sorry we never got the chance to develop further into a different type of relationship. 

Letting go for the third time.

Sucks real bad.

But hey, thats life.

"Time will tell."

It has.

What is Hope?

Do I look like I am still hoping?

How should one stop hoping?

Yes, I am hoping.

But then, people should know....

The things that we hope for changes as time passes.

Today I may be hoping for something, 

then tomorrow I might be hoping for something else.

"Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops at all" ~ Emily Dickinson

So keep on hoping people.

But don't let it stop you from living.

xoxoxo

Listening

Distant rumbling of thunders can be heard. It's gonna rain soon.. 

Rain. 

The one weather that provokes so many different type of emotions in me. I love the rain. The sound of it falling brings me comfort and the sense of security. And yet, there are times when the sound of raindrops brings the sense of loneliness and sadness as well.

The turmoil I am going through now, I try so hard to hide it away. 

Why is it so when I've finally found a person that has almost everything that I have been searching for in a guy, and yet to just finally end up as just friends? To feel so comfortable with a person in such a short period that you dare to think that there might be more. Where is the fairness in this? Knowing me, I'm not the type that gets comfortable with new people so fast, let alone a guy. So where is the fairness in all of this???

 I've slowly adjusted myself to look at him in a new perspective. Since he sees me as a sister, it's fair that I too sees him not more then a brother. Right? Slowly, the term 哥 seems to be more fitting for him than anything else. And to hear him call me Girl so naturally as if we've known each other forever, some how puts a smile on my face. Silly huh?

But then there are times when I allow my brain to wander and think about all this matters, I'd feel those prickling sensation in my eyes. To not feel a tad bit of sadness and unfairness, I would be lying. But I have not yet allowed myself to cry over this. No, I will not cry. :)

And so every time I get sad and every night (or morning) before I sleep, I'll ensure myself that God must have better plans to just place both of us as friends. I will keep my faith in Him and believe that He knows what's best for me, and also for him.

So until then, I should live life happily and also gratefully. No?

"I'm tired of fighting. I want to be fought for. I'm tired of caring. I want to be cared for. I'm tired of being just me. I want to be yours." #TheNoteboook

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"Listen with your heart, you will understand"

But now the only sounds I can hear are the sounds of raindrops falling.

And for tonight, those sounds are soothing sounds to be made into my lullaby as I drift of to sleep later.

So until the next post,

xoxoxo

More quotes

Just found these 2 quotes while browsing thru the internet just now. Speaks out to me. :)

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"Often when we realize how precious those seconds are, it's too late for them to be captured because the moment has passed. We realize too late."

~ Cecelia Ahern

"People come, people go – they’ll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past."

~ Nicholas Sparks

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Yes, I'm a quote-freak. It's my way of forgetting my problems.

One of my favourite quotes

I Quote~

"This is my wish for you:

Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life."

:)

I like this quote.

Quote for today?

Life is not the amount of breaths you make,
it’s the moments that take your breath away.