Ninja Assassin~~

I wanna go and watch Ninja Assassin. I wanna see RAIN!!!

:'(

I ain't a doll, ok?

Dreams

People usually say that people who dreams would achieve great things in their life. Do not be afraid to dream. it is dreams that motivates us when eveything fails ..

I am a dreamer ..

I'd dream of wonderful things to do. Great ideas, great plans. Smiles everywhere .. But, my dreams don't always come true. There is a lot of obstacles in my way.

Dreams ... I am afraid to dream now. But then, when reality seems so cruel, it's easier to slip off ..

:'(

Can't really explain properly right now. My mind and my heart is too messed up right now. Don't know what to do.

*sigh*

Off to one of my fairytales again. At least I'm happy there ...

Leona Lewis~~

I love Leona's songs. Able to relate most of her songs to what I'm going through. Her latest song, Happy, suits my life so much right now. :)



Leona Lewis - Happy



someone once told me
that you have to choose
what you win or lose
you cant have everything
don’t you take chances
you might feel the pain
don’t you love in vain
cause love wont set you free
i could stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
so unhappy but safe as could be

(Chorus)
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
don’t care about other pain in front of me
cause i’m just tryna be happy, yea
just wanna be happy, yea

holding on tightly
just cant let it go
just tryna play my roll
slowly disappear, oooh
well all these tears
they feel like they’re the same
just different faces, different names
get me outta here
well i can stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
pass me by

(Chorus)
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
don’t care about other pain in front of me
cause i’m just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy
oooh

so any turns that i cant see
ill count a stranger on this road
but don’t say victim
don’t say anything

(Chorus)
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
don’t care about all the pain in front of me
cause i’m just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy

:)

Bit of knowledge causes no harm ..

The other day, while talking to a friend, I learn something new. This friend of mine is a frequent flier. And I was told, that as a frequent flier, this could effect your fertility rate. Hahahaha!

So, I did a bit of reading, just for fun. this is what I've found out.

Causes of low fertility rate:
1) Smoking
2) Diet
3) Alcohol
4) STD's
5) Vigorous exercises
6) Driving
7) Misuse of substance
8) Radiation treatment
9) Malnutrition and Lack of Supplements
10) Genetic causes

Wait, there's driving as a cause of low fertility rate. But there's nothing about flying. So how can a frequent flier be affected?

Answer? Because of RADIATION.

Quoted from an article by Brent Blue on August 22, 2000 :

" We're now entering a peak period in the 11-year solar cycle (forecast to
reach its maximum sometime in 2001), when the huge magnetic storms on the
surface of the sun -- technically known as Coronal Mass Ejections (CMEs) and
colloquially as solar flares -- expel eruptions of high-energy ionized gasses
through space at speeds of 600 miles per second or more. When these eruptions
reach Earth, they often produce eerily beautiful displays of the northern and
southern lights in polar regions, and also often cause disruptions in
wireless communications. In extreme cases, they have been known to disrupt
power grids and cause blackouts. Such solar particle events can also
drastically increase the amount of radiation to which people aboard
high-flying jet aircraft are exposed. That's one reason that there seems to
be a renewed interest in the possible health hazards of cosmic and solar
radiation to professional cockpit and cabin crews, and even frequent-flying
passengers. "

Owh! These radiation does not only affects the fertility rate, but it can also cause cancer.

And so my frequent flier friends, be careful~

P.S: Should have done a better report, but I was too lazy to type out. I'm in my holiday mood now. And I'm excited on going to watch 2012 tonight! (Was supposed to be yesterday but the cinema was full! Darn. Friday the 13th? Haha.)

What was you're ambition when you were 6?

The other day, I answered a random question in Facebook. It was about what was your ambition when you were little. I smiled when I thought back on what I wanted to be.

There was one period of time when I wanted to be a Professional Ballerina. (I still do!) I was quite serious on becoming a ballerina. My parents enrolled me for ballet classes in Honiara when I was 4. I was delighted when my god-father gave me a present in the form of a ballerina tutu and also a pair of ballerina shoes. (I still have them somewhere in my closet). I even took part in a ballet performance. The performance was based on one of my favorite Disney Princess, Sleeping Beauty. But as I was a beginner and was too small to handle important roles, I ended up being a minion fairy. -____-“ Still it was fun. But then, my ballet classes had to come to an end because my family had to move back to Malaysia. *sigh* There goes my Professional Ballerina dreams. Up until today, I really envy those ballerinas I see in the tellie, especially if they are performing Swan Lake. :(

Then, I wanted to be a Professional Pianist. I love music and I especially love the piano. Love touching the keys and listening to the sounds they make. And so, my parents enrolled me for piano lessons (to make up for my ballet classes). I was thrilled. Every week, I’d look forward for my piano lessons. Even though my instructor was very strict and fierce, the best day of the week would always be the day I have piano lessons. I’d walk to my instructor’s house for these lessons, rain or shine.

Wait! There’s one funny incident I can never forget that happened on those short walks I took. There was one time when I was on my way; I was suddenly surrounded by dogS! I didn’t know what to do so I just stood there; too petrified to shout or ask for help (I was only 6 or 7 at that time). I wanted to run but then I remembered reading from somewhere that if you run, dogs will tend to chase you. So there I was, trying to stand very still, hoping the dogs would lose their interest in me and go away. I was just a millisecond away from crying when my ‘knight in shining armor’ came to the rescue. (Actually, he was just a kid bit older than I was, riding his bike on the way to a convenient store. -____-“) So, he chased away the dogs then came back to make sure I was alright. The only thing I can remember him saying to me was “OK. You can go now. Dogs are gone.” Haha.

Ok, Ok. Back to my ambition on becoming a pianist. No, did not turn out to be a pianist. Another shattered dream along with my ballerina dream. Had to quit my piano lesson when I found out that I’d be entering SM Sains Kuching, which is a Sekolah Berasrama Penuh (SBP). So, goodbye Professional Pianist.

After that, I have no idea on what my ambition was anymore. But! I found a new passion. Writing. I love to write. Whenever I feel sad or angry or just bored, I’d pick up a pen and just write. Prove? My ever so thick diaries from high school and matriculation. :) (Psst! I’m still doing it. But no more books. It’s all in my lappie.)

I love poetries. I love short stories. I love anything to do with writing. My favorite subject during high school? English Literature. I love Shakespeare. Love, love, love Shakespeare. Used to dream that one day I could go and study bout him and all those other famous writers. And so, after my SPM, I tried to apply for TESL. Figured that that would be my first step on my journey to go and study more on Shakespeare and the others. But, no answer. :( I thought that maybe my English wasn’t good enough. So I waited. After taking my MUET, I tried to apply again. But still, no can do. Imagine the frustrations! So, goodbye Shakespeare. That was when someone suggested that I should consider studying linguistic. BUT, my parents and relatives were against that idea. *sigh*

In the end, where am I? Here in Curtin, doing a double major in Commerce. Commerce! That’s like so different then what I wanted to be when I was little. Loving my Marketing units but really struggling through my Finance units. Why oh why did I took finance? *sigh* How do I see myself in the future? Ugh! Pretty bleak for me in the finance stream. :( Hope I’d do better in the marketing stream.

Oh wait! I’ve found another passion. Baking. Actually, I’ve been baking ever since I was a kid. Helped Mummy a lot in the kitchen. The first cake that I baked all by myself was a birthday cake for Mummy when I was 10 years old. Did it from scratch, ok? Even the icings. That was 13 years ago. Now, here I am, baking and selling cupcakes as a way of eliminating stress from studying too much. :) Maybe after I’ve completed my degree in Finance and Marketing, I could go for classes at Wilton? Can I? Haha.

Eva Holt! Don’t you dare forget bout BrainWash. :)

Anyway, what I’m trying to tell is that what you dreamt of as little kids might not necessarily come true when you get older. Take my ambitions for example.

Yes, I would still love to be a ballerina. But I don’t think my bones could tolerate on all those pointy toes exercises anymore.

Yes, I would still love to be a pianist. I still can go back for piano lessons. But then, when I’m done, would the world be ready for an old pianist? Haha.

Yes, I would still love to study bout Shakespeare. Guess I’d have to settle on Google-ing infos bout him rather than attending lectures.

Maybe in the future, you’ll see me running my own business. Selling cupcakes, cookies, cakes, pies, scones and what so ever. :)

Or maybe, just maybe I’ll be writing articles for some glossy high class magazine. :) (I still love writing ok?)

Who knows what the future might bring. Come what may.

Almost there! もおすこし!!

My last paper is today! Yea!


That's how I feel. :S

Darn tiring la exams ...

You are my Love

雨に濡れた頬は涙の匂いがした
優しい眼差しのたびびと

静かに響いてるなつかしい音楽
思い出せない記憶彷徨う

夢は飛び立つの小さな翼で想いの消えない場所まで
二人で遠い海を空を越えて

暗い夜の中で私を照らしてる
優しい眼差しの貴方に
あいたい。。。

Translation
The faint scent of tears
On my rain soaked cheeks
The warm look on the face
Of travelers

The music from our childhood
Faintly echoes in the background
The memories I hopelessly try to remember
Wander aimlessly

But with these tiny wings, launched by my dreams
Over distant oceans and skies
We'll soar together
To a place where memories never fade

You light up the way for me
In the darkness of night
Oh, that warm look
On your face
I miss you so much

P.S: Haven't heard this song for quite awhile. Was reading through my Strategic Marketing notes while listening to some music, when this song came on. I love this song. It's from an anime call Tsubasa Chronicles. :)

Baby, don't cry

Tell me, does anyone knows how soothing it is to be standing under the rain when you’re feeling troubled?

I do.

There was one time, a long time ago, when I was feeling quite sad about something. Felt like crying but then I was afraid that someone would notice and starts asking me what’s wrong. I can never explain properly what I was feeling at that moment. But then, coincidently, it started to rain. My friends were bored and so they suggested that we should all go out and play around in the rain. In my heart I was whispering Thank You! because I really needed some kind of distraction.

So there we were, a bunch of teenagers frolicking in the rain as if we were 5 years old. And let me tell you, to stand completely still out in the pouring rain … it feels so blissful. Especially if you close your eyes and face upwards towards the sky. To feel the raindrops on your face and skin, it’s like tiny massages, trying to wash away your troubles. To listen to nothing else but the pitter patter of rains falling all around you, it’s like you’re in a little private world of your own. And if you inhale deeply, there’ll only be the smell of damp soils. Call me crazy, but I find all of that so relaxing …

And so up until today, whenever it is raining heavily, I’d get a sudden urge to run outside and just dance around in the rain.

Especially today … I had a damn hard time today. I hate exams. Exams always make me feel stupid. No matter how long I’ve studied, I’d still feel stupid during the exams. But after a really tough paper today, I really wanted to cry. And cry I did when I was safe and sound in my room.

Still, I can’t keep on crying forever. No matter how troubled my heart would be, I should be strong. Right? *sigh*

Time to put on my happy face again.


Babyもうdon't cry
(Baby don't cry yeah)
It's gon' be alright
(It's gon' be alright)
Babyもうdon't cry
(Babyもうdon't cry)
You'll see the sunshine
(You'll see the sunshine)
Babyもうどのくらい
(Baby don't baby don't)
一人でyou've been tryin'
(一人でyou've been tryin')
Babyもうdon't cry
(Babyもうdon't cry)
You'll see the sunshine
(You'll see the sunshine)

Baby don’t cry~



P.S: After standing out in the rain that day, I had fever. Haha! So yes, standing in the rain may be soothing, but you should be wise enough to get a warm bath after that so you won’t get sick. Besides, a warm bath will soothe you even more. :)

Fairy tales?

I wanna live in fairy tales.

Ever since I was a little girl, I’ve always believed in fairy tales. Thanks to Daddy. He bought me all kinds of fairytale books when I was little. There would be stories about princesses trapped in spells, waiting for her Prince Charming to come and rescue her, stories about poor page boys turning into heroes by fighting off dragons and evil monsters. There are even stories on ancient Greek Gods and Goddess. But my all time favorites when I was little would always be on magical creatures. All sorts of them. Fairies, pixies, elves, dwarfs, unicorns, griffins, and so on.

Not only books, but he also bought me the whole set of Disney cartoons. I really mean the whole set. Peter Pan, Sleeping Beauty, Beauty and the Beast, The Little Mermaid, Cinderella, Aladdin, Pocahontas, The Jungle Book, The Lion King, Alice in Wonderland, Pete’s Dragon, The Aristocats, and the list goes on … You name it, I’ve watched it. I can even sing along to the songs from those cartoons. Seriously. Daddy bought me and my sister a lot of sing-a-long cassettes from those Disney movies. :S

Hence, the source of my wild imagination. :)

I wanna fly off to Never Land. (2nd star to the right and straight on till morning.)

I wanna sleep forever till my Prince Charming comes and wakes me up with true love’s kiss.

I wanna go to parties, balls, masquerades, and what so ever ..

I wanna go and see a whole new world with someone.

I wanna run free through the woods and not care bout anything else but freedom.

I wanna meet dragons, elves, dwarfs and stroke a unicorn.

I wanna go to Wonderland, however absurd it is in Wonderland.

I wanna live in fairy tales. Period. :(

*sigh*


Reality can be cruel sometimes. Life may not always be easy on us. Everyday, there are decisions to be made. Sometimes, one slight mistake could cause you a lot. It’s during those times I really wish something magical will happen to me.

Cast a spell. Whisk me off to one of the fairy tales please?


I do believe in fairies! I do! I do!

Oh I Hate ExamS .. :S

Yes, will be having exams soon. GRRRR!!! Really hate exams.

Trying really hard to cram my head with last minute revision. Sadly, no way can do.

I Quote~

"This is my wish for you:

Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life."

:)

I like this quote.