It's Monday again...

...but baby I don't care. Coz when I'm with you, everything feels alright.

Yeah... Its lyrics from a song. Lame, I know.. But for this semester, I love Mondays. Hehehe. No, I'm not gonna tell why.

2 in the morning, almost 3. Why am I still up? ASSIGNMENT!!! Been forcing myself to get it done but sadly, I just can't. Why oh why am I like this?? *sigh* And I just found out a while ago that I have not 2, but 3 presentation on the week after my free week. Demm!!! So my free week won't be so free. (¡_¡) *stress*

Ok bye. Gonna go and force myself to do the assgnment. Grrr!!

xoxo

Hello, Hello

Yes, yes I know that I am supposed to be sleeping. Ish. But I just took a shower and so now I am feeling a bit refreshed. So while I'm waiting for sleep to come knocking, might as well blab a bit in my blog, eventhough no one is reading. Hahaha.

Weekend was plain boring.. Saturday I had mid terms for Accounting Managerial (which was really confusing), so I spent most of the days before that doing revisions. Then after the accounting mid terms, I have to prepare myself to yet another test, which is for my System Analysis & Design unit. The test would be on Wednesday, 13th. Days before Weds would be pretty busy because I still have to make sure that me n my group members are completely our task for the SAD assignment just like what we've outlined in the Work Plan. I do not wanna leave things till the last minutes again 'coz this assignment really has a lot of things to be done. And I know that I will have like 3 presentations due around the same time this SAD assignment is due. :S Ow, and after my Test 1 on Wednesday, gotta finish up my 2000 word critical essay. Fun right?

This semester really seems a bit boring. But times do fly by so fast! Maybe its because of the increasing workloads. Heck! I spent more time in the library now, studying and doing tutorials! I'm such a nerd... Even on weekends I am nerding in my room.. *sobsob*

But enough talking 'bout nerds. While I was taking a break just now, I did some readings. Then suddenly an incident from High School came to mind. Hahaha. Since I have nothing much to write, allow me to blab about this. :)

It was in the year 2002, I was in Form 4. :) Me and my friends were quite close to our English/P.Moral teacher, Mr.Andee Yeo. Now, one day after our Moral class, Mr. Andee told me to come and look for him during recess. So I said, ok without giving it much thoughts. But when recess came, I totally forgot 'bout having to go and meet him. There was something going on, I don't really remember what, but it made me sad. So there I was, feeling sorry for myself on the balcony when looking down, there was Mr.Andee, looking up at me.

"I thought I told you to come and look for me during recess?"

Hahaha. Told him I was sorry but I totally forgot. So down I went to meet him. And guess what was the reason he asked me to meet him? With a serious face, he started to tell he that when he was a student, his English teacher took him aside and gave him a book. His teacher had said that it was a tradition that was being passed on, a teacher giving his/her student a book. And so, Mr.Andee told me that he would like to pass on the tradition by giving me a book. He said that I would be the suitable student because #### (I'm too shy to say it here) and thats why he's chosen me. I was really2 touched. When I've said ny thanks and went back to my classroom, I was too stunned to begin telling my friends why Mr.Andee asked to look for him.

The book that he gave was 'Piercing The Darkness' by Frank E. Peretti. It was a good book. And I really treasure it. But thinking of what this teacher of mine had told me, I felt sad. Looks like I won't be able to pass on the tradition..

I've tried asking for TESL, twice. I love English. And it has always been my dream to share my passion for English Literature to young minds one day. But sadly, applied twice but didnt receive any response from neither of my application. So here I am, stuck doing something thats not my passion.

Read that book twice, and if only that book is here with me now, I would love to read it again. :)

Ok enough. Ohemgee, look at the time! Better sleep. Early class later on. Back to the nerdy life in campus. (¡_¡)

xoxoxo

Tears are words your heart cannot express...

Hush, hush.. I'm crying again..

I can't write why 'coz the reason may seem so absurd to some. Even I still find it hard to believe. But it really makes me sad.. The last time I cried so hard like dis was back in Dec 2010..

I wanna leave Miri, can?

A short post

Okay okay okay! I know its past midnight and I should be asleep by now. But the problem is, I accidently fell asleep around 6pm and only woke up at 8.30pm. (¡_¡) Besides, it's always at times like this when I get the most ideas on what to write.

But, I've said earlier on in the tittle itself that this will be a short post. I am curently into the vintage bag craze. Since I saw a shop full with those cute bags in Kuching somewhere around Dec last year. But I missed out the opportunity to get myself one. Really felt bummed out. Until I found bags like those I saw back in Dec in a boutique in one of Miri's shopping mall. Yeah! So I got myself a bag (thanks to my generous lil sis who sponsered me) and I was happy.

Then! Just a while ago, my bestie's cousin (who's like family already to me) called and told me she bought a vintage bag for her sis but the sis already has one with d same colour. So she asked me whether I want the bag. Like HELL YEAH!! Hahaha.

So now I am more than happy. ;)

Ok that's all. Need to go to sleep 'coz I have to wake up early later. Breaskfast with darling bestie. At 8! Haha.

xoxo



p/s. I'm gonna have a new dress as well. N knowing this gal, she always chooses dresses that are cute and suits my taste. :)

April already?!

April. Wow. Why is time passing by so fast?! I'm not even having a good time. Or maybe I am, without realizing it. Hmmm... Is doing assignments and tutorial questions considered as having a good time?? Haha.

I know, I know... Even with wifi 24/7 at home I'm still not writing regularly. I dunno. There's nothing much to say now anyway. Hmmm... Lemme think first what has happened recently in my life.

**thinking**

Okay. Last night I felt relieved. After telling what was really happening to a friend of mine. But I felt a bit bad too for telling her what our friend was going through bcoz I know she has a soft and caring heart. The story I told might her sad and worried. And that was just the summary! But still, felt relieved.

I'm supposed to be tidying up my room now because the landlady will be coming. My air-con socket seems to be having problem. So she's coming over to check. Feeling a bit nervous 'coz I've never met her. Hehe.

Ow! I bought wall stickers to decorate my room a bit. There's a lotof space in my new room and my hand itches to do something artsy on the walls. So far there's 2 spot where I've covered with wall stickers. Still thinking what to do next. Maybe cover it with more wall stickers and try to create a story out of them. Haha.

And for the last 2 night I dreamt of the past. I dunno why the past suddenly decided to come back and haunt my dreams 'coz I've been doing okay. I mean, sure there are a part of me thats still a bit sad over what had happened but I'm not letting that sad part of me take over my life like it used to. But those dreams, makes me sad when I wake up. But its okay. 'Coz later on during the day, I'll just focus on something else and be happy again. ;)

What else? What else? Yesterday had salmon for lunch at Sanga Japanese Restaurant. But I forgot to take a pic coz I was too hungry. Haha.

Maybe I can stop now? Coz I'm out of ideas. Will write again soon.

xoxo

If I Could Have Just One Kiss?

Haha. Watsup wif d tittle? It's a line from a song thats been stuck in my head for almost a week now. Just One Kiss by Nick Carter. Oh? Heard a snigger there. Yes, I'm a Nick Carter fan. Been a fan since 1997. Hush! Haha.

Right now, I'm suppose to be typing my 2000 word essay. But I don't have the motivatiin and I don't have any idea how to start. Waiting for the 'feel' to come. Then I can start. Haha. So until the 'feel' comes, lemme waste some time doing nothing. **procastinating** :)

Lately, I dunno why but I feel trapped. Dunno what more suitable words to use. Sorry Mr.Bestie if my answer was not the one you wanted to hear. But after a 5yr relationship, not including the time I took to completely let go and move, I wanna be free. I wanna enjoy being single. Haha. I cannot describe the incredible feelings i feel now when my heart has finally moved on. I fly like I could soar! *exaggerate* Haha. But really, I can't find the right word to describe. I'm just so very happy. So I wanna savour this feeling. I don't wanna get tied up so soon. Luciky the Bestie understands. Heck, more than understands! He gave me advises some more! <- direct translation. My dad will kill me if he finds out I'm writing sentences thus way. Anyway, he really is a sweet guy. But I dunno.. I don't have that butterfly in ur tummies feelings with him. *sigh* Besides, even though we've known each other for like 12 years ... People changes. Believe me, I've changed. In High School, I was this noisy girl that laughs out loudly and swear excessively. Haha. Look at me now. I've grown up. And this is who I am now, not the loud noisy girl from High School. And I'm afraid, its dat loud noisy girl he's looking for. Well she's still here, somewhere deep inside. But there a sensitivepart of me over that noisy girl now. Heartache and experience really changed me. :) So, even with 12 years of friendship, Mr.Bestie doesn't know me well enough yet. And sadly, I sometimes get annoyed. So to save whatever friendship I have left, that was the best answer I could give.

Btw, my lil bro will be studying in Miri now. Starts on Monday. Hope he will be better. :)

Now, I better go back to staring at my lappie screen. *sigh*

p.s : I dunno why but suddenly there's A LOT of cute guys when I walk around campus. Haha.

xoxo

Wifi @home :)

Yeah! Finally got streamyx at home. :) Dat means more updates for my poor negleceted bloggie. Haha. Wait~ I should have said "Can search articles & journals for my assignments!" instead of updates. Haha. Temptations, must resist.

3rd week. So far so good. Spent most of my times in between class being a nerd in the library. Because, I'm too lazy to walk 5mins to n fro my house and the bus stop at 12noon. Freaking hot! Except today, rained buckets and buckets. Sigh. Luckily managed to get to the bus stop without getting myself too wet.

What else to talk about hm? Is it because I'm feeling content now so I don't have much too share? Haha. I hope not. I miss baking la. If only my current house has a mini stove for me to do bakings.. But I guess we can't have everything right? Haha.

Before I forget, thank you Mr.Bestie for always making me smile. Eventhough you do it in a strange way which I guess other people won't understand. :)

And thank you God for the little things that you've shown what me n my heart are capable of. :)

*sigh*

Why? Why? Why?

If this is anothet test that You're placing before me, I pray that You would also provide me with the strength and patience to endure this. I don't know what else to do. I don't know what is right and what is wrong. I love them both very much coz they are my parents. Each plays an important role in my life. But to see them like this, it hurts me so much more than they realize. So, so much more.

I know that everything happens for a reason. I just hope I would be able to understand why this is happening. To me, to my family.

What should I do now?

:'(

24/7, My Heaven

Ignore the tittle. It's just lyrics frm a song that's stuck in my head. :) I'm back in Miri. Bit homesick but hey, what do you expect after you've been pampered for 3 months. Haha.

So far, after the sad incident in December, I'm ok. In fact I myself find it hard to believe but I think I've let go. :) There's some one who cares for me and makes sure that I'm not sad. Haha. I remember writing in a post once that I dun like the person I've becomed. That I would not feel proud of myself if I were to meet up with my friends from High School. But now, I can say that I've found the person that I used to be. Before the heartaches, the jealousy, the pretennds and the cryings. I've found the happy me that I used to be. Thanks to a very close friend of mine. God certainly did answer my prayers by sending back into my life. :)

So, 2011. I am now more confident to face whatever you throw at me. :)

Starting all over again..

So.. Where to start? How to start? I guess the first step to take is to forgive myself snd just let go. We cannot change the past.. That's what I tell myself anyway. Haha.

I've been working. It may be tiring but in a way I feel as it's a blessing. At least when I'm busy, my mind won't wander off and think of the bad things that has happened. And at night, I'd be so tired that I'll fal asleep straight away. So, believe it or not... I'm good. :))

2011.. May this year bring better memories. Although 2010 has been a hell of a year for me, I'm thankful for 2010. That year has taught me to be strong and has also shown me what I'm capable of. Heart-broken as I may have been, I'm glad of the lessons I've learnt. :)

Besides, not all of 2010 is bad... I got a really cool present from my dad for my bday. Haha.

So thanks 2010.. 2011, I'm ready for whatever challenges you throw at me!

Cheers everyone. Have a Happy 2011. :)