What is Love?

Love is a slow kiss goodnight, it's anticipation.
Love is flirting ourtageously and still remembering that the person at your side is not obligated to do anything, it's respect.
Love is an imperfection in your self not bothering you, it's acceptance.
Love is passing up an opportunity because the time isn't right yet, it's patience.
Love is a back massage that starts above the hairline and ends around the insoles, it's exploration.
Love does not have to say, "lets make love," because you know what the other person wants, it understanding.
Love is being given an honest chance to say no when you thought you were committed, it's consideration.
Love is both of you remembering protection, it's responsibility.
Love is saying the perfect phrase to make a solemn embrace dissolve into giggles, it's humor.
Love is being told "stop and I'll kill you." It's desire.
Love is reviewing the damge to your living room and realizing personal effects are strewn in a clockwise pattern from the front door the to bedroom, it's abandonment.
Love is seeing what your love really looks like for the first time, it's truth.
Love is knowing what time it is and not caring, it's joy.
Love is the arms around you tightening their embrace, it's ecstasy.
Love is seeing a new side of a person you thought you knew, it's renewal.
Love is telling a person if you have to leave, you will let them sleep, and being told they would rather be woken, it's tenderness.
Love is waking up to find the subject of the dream you were having asleep on your shoulder, it's where fantasy meets reality.
Love is being there to wake your lover slowly, it's sensuousness.
Love belatedly knows why you bothered to buy a queen-sized bed three years ago, it's practicality.
Love is two people only taking up a third of a queen-sized bed, it's closeness.
Love knows you gave the extra set of keys to your apartment to the right person, it's trust.
Love is saying good-bye and knowing you will be back by mutual consent, it's faith.
Love is stretching your arms and discovering the real meaning of the word "sore" it's a lesson in human frailty.
Love is opening your medicine cabinet finding your tube of toothpaste turned into a prezel, it's adaptation.
Love is sitting at the window, looking out and remembering who you were with the night before, it's reflection.
Love is hearing the weather forecast for a winter storm and wishing you could spend it in bed with your lover, it's loneliness.
Love is stories that will never be told, it's personal.


Found this online at some website. I kind of like some parts of it.

xoxoxo

Secret pastime activity revealed :)

Hello lovelies!

I kept putting off blogging, even though there are lots of happy things to be shared. I find myself too lazy or even tired sometimes. Tired from what? I dunno. Hahaha.

Anyway, referring to the title of this post. 

Secret pastime activity revealed

Well, its actually not really a secret. Coz we've let some of the product to be leaked through the internet, most especially through Facebook. 

My cousins and I (and also my siblings when they are around), we like to take pictures. Yeah, sounds normal. Everyone take pictures as well. So what? Right? Well, we don't care! 

Been doing this for a few years. At first we would just randomly cycle to the beach and take pictures using our hand-phones and stuff, trying to work out different angles that might turn up nice in the pictures. Just normal pastimes for us. Heck, there was even one time when it started to rain when we were doing our own stuff at home, when we realized it would be nice if we could capture a picture with raindrops falling in it. So tried we did. That's how random we were. 

Recently, we've upgraded. Well, only slightly. 

And we did another amateur photo shoot for ourselves. 

The theme was Fairy vs. Street-wear.

But I think for my part, I was going more to the lost doll thing.

We were our own wardrobe coordinator, make up artist, model, photographer and all. 

Wanna see the results?

(I don't care if you said no, I'm gonna post it anyway)

Ok, that's only some of the pictures from our little amateur photo shoot.

We're still working out on our skills, whether on the poses, facial expressionism and also photography skills. For me, this is just another pastime activity. Doing something that is fun and something that I like. Not so sure but the other two cousins. Maybe they will take it further. We shall see. 

Last picture!

The three of us, calling it a wrap.

We're now thinking of our next location. 

:)

xoxoxo

♥♥♥

Been searching for this song for quite sometime. Til I actually gave up last year. Haha. I love the melody and also the lyrics. :)

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"Black Cherry"

How can it be? I can taste you now

How can I see when you're everything?

All my world in one grain of sand

And I've blown it

All my world in one grain of sand

And you own it

Black cherry, black cherry, stone

Black cherry, black cherry

Hearing you say it, I could die

Trembling star, just reminds me

All my world in one grain of sand

And I've blown it

All my world in one grain of sand

And you own it

Black cherry, black cherry, stone

Black cherry, black cherry

Excite me, ignite me

Oh and you know

I miss you, I kiss you

Oh and you know

Black cherry, black cherry, stone

Black cherry, black cherry

Excite me, ignite me

Oh and you know

I miss you, I kiss you

Oh and you know

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I miss you

xoxoxo

Read!

While cleaning up my notes and stuff yesterday, I found a collection of quotes that I wrote down. I am a quote freak. I love quotes. 

This one particular quote us a bit long. Bear with it for moment. Read through. The meaning made me smile. And the whole time I read through this quote yesterday, only one oerson stayed in my mind. 

"Once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals which were never achieved and many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitment. They are not embaressed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they want to hurt your feelings or make you feel like you were not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only the quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seemed insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood comes back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughters seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face. In their pressence there is no need for continous conversation, but you would find you're quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before becomes fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is special to you. You think of this person in every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart, knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you have never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life." -Bob Marley

So who comes to your mind when you read through this?

;)

Take care loves.

xoxoxo

Burden off my chest

Missing ♥ tonight. Kinda hard to adjust back after having him with me for 7 nights in a row. Last night was the best. Pillow talks, telling each other more about ourselves and finally having the courage to open up about our own dark past.

I was surprised of his past. Yes I know no one is perfect. Heck, I've said that a few times before, stressing that I am not perfect. I listen, I understand, then I let go. Why should I hold on to his stories of his past? His past shaped his character today, all the lesson learnt to bring out a better person. I don't really care about his past. It's a future with him that I care about. Focus on today to create a better future together, yes? :)

Even my past has not been all rainbows and butterflies. There were things that I've hidden from my new circle of friends. Only those that I feel close and worthy knows about my past. And he deserves to know all of me, then he can decide whether he can accept me for who I am. That's why I finally had the courage to open up about my past. I know he was a bit shocked. But I can see that he tried to accept it.

Tell me, have you ever just suddenly realized how much in love you are with one person? And to wonder how is it even possible to fall even more in love as each day passes. If all the heartache and pain I've been through for the past few years were meant to lead me to this person, I have no regrets. In fact, I will do it all over again and not change a thing. Just as long as in the end, I get to meet, know, like and love this guy. Thank you Heavenly Father, for answering my prayer. Could You go even further to give us courage to face any obstacles that You would place before us as tests.

I love this guy. He really is different. Being with him, I dont have to always be conversing. Just having him near me with the silence hanging around us, makes me feel safe. Just because he is near me.

Can't wait to see what the future has in stored for us.
Just like the lyrics from my all time fave song (and a must wedding song!) At The Beginning by Donna Lewis & Richard Marx.

"We were strangers, on a crazy adventure. Never dreaming how our dreams would come true."

Off to bed. Yes I know its a bit early for me. But then I didn't had enough sleep (coz I rather be awake talking to him) and woke up early to pack and clean up my room and stuffs. I am now currently at my aunt's place, job hunting. Bit far from that some one but thanking the Lord that we are actually still within driving distance.

So, good night now poppets.

xoxoxo

Word!

Remember I wrote earlier on that one of my close friend gave me advises on which was the better decision? It goes something like this quote I found online. From the book, He's Just Not That Into You.

"I'm about to make a wild, extreme and severe relationship rule: the word "busy" is a load of crap and is most often used by assholes. The word "busy" is the relationship Weapon of Mass Destruction. It seems like a good excuse, but in fact in every silo you uncover, all you're going to find is a man who didn't care enough to call. Remember, men are never too busy to get what they want." 

- Greg Behrenht

So now you know why.

Bye!

xoxoxo

Hold on to it :)

This has always been one of my favourite song from Avril. Only recently  then I can connect her song with how my life is now. 

Innocence

Waking up I see that everything is OK

The first time in my life and now it's so great

Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed

I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it

This is the best feeling

[Chorus]

This innocence is brilliant

I hope that it will stay

This moment is perfect

Please don't go away

I need you now

And I'll hold on to it

Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear

The first time in my life and now it's so clear

Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here

It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it

This is the best feeling

[Chorus]

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming

It's the happiness inside that you're feeling

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming

It's the happiness inside that you're feeling

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliant

Makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliance

Please don't go away

Cause I need you now

And I'll hold on to it

Don't you let it pass you by

[Chorus]

xoxoxo

Reposting

Hello loves.

Reading back on whatever nonsense I wrote on my blog and found this quote I posted up. Fits pefectly in my life situation now, especially after what I blabbed about few post earlier on. 

It's a quote by Nicholas Sparks from his book, The Rescue. 

"People come, people go - they'll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favourite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past."

There's a new important character in my life now.

:)

xoxoxo

Sniffles :(

Yes that's right. 

Yours truly has the sniffles. During final exam week. Great huh?

Wifi is back. So I am typing out this post on the lappie. Can't study any more, this nose is killing me. And my mind is distracted.

Been reading back on what I've posted on this nonsense blog of mine for the past few years. Ohemgee. Has it been that bad? Have I always been crying? Was it so hard to move on? Has it really been that complicated?

Yes. Yes. Yes. And yes.

But no, I don't regret anything. If I were given the chance to turn back time and change something, I won't change anything. Why? Because the past had taught me a lot. Because all the heartache I went through, eventually lead me to someone. Unexpectedly.

The last one month has been blissful. Yes, friends all say that these early periods are just the honeymoon stages. Heck, been there and done that before with the previous relationship. But I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this time, it will last. 

I really never expected that things will turn out this way. What were only meant to be just an attraction, turned out to be all this. There are many times I'll catch myself smiling for no particular reasons. It hasn't been easy. There were always doubts. Doubts in myself, in him, in what is happening around me. Because everything that has happened were really unexpected. And I doubt myself for feeling this strong of attraction, even on the first night of meeting him. Told myself, nah... Couldn't be. Besides, what are the chances of meeting up again and becoming more than just acquaintances?

But then, hey. Back in Curtin and things turned out differently. From acquaintances to friends. Oh my, the attraction? Ever so much harder to ignore. It was when I'd suddenly realize that I smile to myself myself whenever I receive text messages from him or knowing that there would be a chance of meeting up with him, then I realized that this was no longer attraction. But I couldn't bring myself to admit it, even to myself. Denial. 

Besides, keep telling myself over and over again that this cannot be. My feelings were for another. Was it not so? Confusion. Doubts. Denial. 

And so, how did it all end up this way?

Believe me, took me quite some time to be sure of myself. Because I realized it wouldn't be fair for him and it would kill me to hurt such a guy if I were to make the wrong decision. The number of advises that close friends gave and the amount of time spent on pondering. In the end, I came to the decision of just doing what makes me happy. Because what makes me happy should be the right choice. Besides, an advise that one of my close friend (who is also my house mate) told me made me realized something. 

So here we are. A month has past. So far, everything has been just fine. Keeping my fingers crossed, really really tightly.

This is why I haven't been posting anything during the month of April. Been caught up with the whirlwind of everything happening. Even for May. 

So, the past would just stay in the past. The feelings, stay there. The lessons, always with me. 

Thank you ❤. For always not wanting to care much about my past. 

The past shapes the person we are today. But its the present and the future that's important.

*fingerscrossed!*

xoxoxo

依然爱你?

This is unexpected.

Before I go on with this post, I'd like to share a quote I read few weeks ago.

"Your absence has been too long, that your presence doesn't matter anymore."

Yeah. Exactly what I wanna talk about.

I never thought it would come to this. I never thought there could/might be a different future with someone different other than you. But the sad thing is, it will and is happening right now. You're so confusing, and I guess you always will. I'll never truly understand what is it you actually want from me, from us (if there ever was an us in your head). Motivation or Distraction? You chose to stay away, to stay quiet. Ignoring me or anything about me. I guess you have your own reasons. 

You always told me to let things be.

"Time will tell."

And time has shown me.

Time has shown me that we were never meant to be.

You will never be anything more to me than just a tiny feeling that I'd keep away at the corner of my heart. 

Time has shown me that there's another who is not afraid to show his effort no matter how busy or tired he is. And as time passes, time has shown me that I am not attracted to this guy, I'm actually falling in love. 

Then what was the feeling I had for you before time showed me my real feelings? I'm guessing, it's more to the sense of nostalgia... 

How you are always able to remind how I was before and made that character reappear after all the drama I've been through, maybe I was just holding on to that. 

I am not sure....

But what I am sure, its goodbye.

Sorry we never got the chance to develop further into a different type of relationship. 

Letting go for the third time.

Sucks real bad.

But hey, thats life.

"Time will tell."

It has.